Being an optimist

I always thought of myself as a pessimist. Growing up, I always found it hard to see the positive side of anything that happened in my life, this came to a point where I learnt to accept things as the way they are instead of attempting to make a change.

I'd like to think of myself on the path of being an optimist, I've learnt to see the positive side in failures, chase my dreams and most importantly I see myself as an opportunist.

"Yes": A magical word that can change your life.

the downside of my efforts to live a healthy lifestyle.

I just found out that my metabolism is severely damaged through all the massive weight loss / gains ive had through out the past 4 years, in other words ..the "yo-yo"ing of weight loss.

2011 , before i visited Australia for my brother's graduation ; 92 kg, slow and steady weight loss to 80 with calorie deficits and long walks with my dad

2012 , extreme HIIT/cardio workouts, dropped weight to 58 within 6 months.

2013, depression and lack of motivation to work out made me gain weight upto 65 kg from 58. This is the point I started lifting and made some quick progress all the way upto 80kg through dirty bulking at this point i was a fat mess.

2014 , slowly started losing weight, as of 7th of August, 2014, I am at 74 kg.

Note to myself, and advice anyone who is trying to stay fit -> Slow and steady wins the race

Friends.

Having friends is an important of a need as air, water and food. When I'm in a depressed state of mind, I often forget about the wide variety of friends I have in my life, all of whom are unique in their own way.

Everyday, I am thankful for my friends who didn't give up on me and were there for me through the thick and thin.I feel comfortable being myself around those who are just weird as me, and are comfortable with expressing themselves to others.

I often meet strangers who look up at me and go "What's up with your hair? It's weird! Why don't you get a normal haircut?". Whether or not someone expresses themselves clearly to me, I am quick to read their judgmental thoughts on my actions or appearance. You are forever in the red zone, dear strangers.

I wish everyone lightens up a little more, how is it exciting in any way to live a mundane life where you dress, walk, dance and pretty much behave as the same as everyone else? Change is a part of life, the social standards we abide by nowadays is a result of cultural norms, traditions and other standards that have been followed for centuries.

   Life is too short, nothing lasts forever, accept change and cherish the friends who have been there for you in hard times.

     "True friends stab you in the heart"

Know thyself.

Lorde

A 17 year old singer with 2 grammy awards, good music(better than the garage on radio nowadays, right?) with deep emotional lyrics, yet she is hated for all the wrong reasons for being a unique artist in her own way.

"She doesn't look 17, more like 50!"

"She cant sing live, needs autotune help!"

"Lorde looks like she's on drugs"

Welcome to the 21st century, I guess?

Thoughts on Arsenal F.C

It's time to start watching the Premier League again, Arsenal finally win a trophy after  almost 10 years! I gave up on club football after seeing the team I support fail over and over, here's to hoping Arsenal returned to their dominant powerhouse status they were almost a decade and a half back

Revamping life, one day at a time

Blogging at 2 am...I'm gonna write what's on my mind right now as I'm unable to sleep with all the coffee I had.

One thing I want to get off my mind is how the youth nowadays talks about the "YOLO" life, which is popular on the internet as a meme of sort and it stands for "You Only Live Once', which is a lifestyle which you don't think twice about anything you do, so my question is, are you really living your life without any regrets? 

Life is too short to think twice and to get to know the people we desire to have in our lives. My teens years were over before I knew it, which is why I'm saying yes to every opportunity I get in life. We close down a million paths with answer of "no", but if your friend asks you to jump off a building, as much of an adrenaline rush it might give you, there's always limits to stupidity.

Moving on to the yolo life, there is always going to be the ones who take the ultimate joy in judging and peeking behind the curtains. As for my life I've often been accused of having multiple personalities by some of my closest of friends who I've known for over 10 years, I've undergone physical appearance changes which makes people who I've known prior to 2 years to have extreme difficulties in recognizing me, I'm not even sure why I even feel the need to live my life the way I do now, I don't want to see myself the way I did yesterday when I look at myself in the mirror when I wake up in the morning, yet after all it feels just about right to live my life the way I do now, I might lose some friends along the way but it's the price I am willing to pay for the life I want.

I'm being judged by many people, in the end, my biggest fear in life is letting someone else control what I desire in life, and not letting myself living it the way I want. All I see in modern world is youth that desires to live a life that is labelled to be the "good life", you might be rich, poor, fat, skinny, pretty, ugly, tall, short, white or black, after all, in the end, doing what makes you happy is the best possible life you can ever hope to have.